This week marked a massive day in my life. Dad was taken back into hospital on Saturday , he had been going downhill for days but wouldn't let me get him to hospital until he had gone unconcious, on saturday afternoon he started slipping in and out of conciousness so i called an ambulance.

It was clear that he was very seriousley ill again , and over the past 6 months had been in and out for treatment, every time we were warned he may not pull through but every time he did ! I suppose you start to think that will always be the case !

He got steadily worse over the weekend and was given just palliative care, having morphine regularly to make him as comfortable as he could be he slipped deeper unconcious, until at 1am on monday morning he died.

You never think about the time when you lose a parent, i suppose it goes against everything to even consider it even though you know it is going to be a reality for most people at some stage.

Dad was a heavy smoker for most of his life , right up until the day before he died, although to be fair at that point he had been told by the drs it was pointless giving up it had gone too far now.

Ironically one of the few photo's i have of him he is sitting underneath a no smoking sign at warrington hospital with one in his hand ! That was just Dads humour.

I am still pretty numb , even though i knew it was coming , i was nowhere near as prepared as i thought i was , could you ever prepare for losing a parent though ?

I have been overwhelmed with the support i have had off family and friends , some friends got the most amazing gift ever, A name a star kit , now i can look up into the sky at night and know dad is there somewhere looking over me and my brother and sisters.

R.I.P Dad x